2013 have been a crazy year for me whether it’s academics, family or social life. However, from the bottom of my heart, I want to thank the people who have stuck by my side through all the good, the bad and the ugly. 

VISION was not only an amazing experience for me but a great life lesson. Throughout the year, I learned so much about myself and others. I was able to form and continue many new friendships. From a casual hello to lat night skype sessions, I appreciate every little act of kindness and familiarity. Forever, these 36 students will always be my little babies even if I don’t talk to every single one of them. 

My OHANA! They are my loves, my rocks, my support system, my family away from home. They are the one who will endure anything for one another. They are the one who will free up their schedule to go watch a show while sitting in each other’s lap. They are that special group of people that I will take their friendships beyond college. I cannot imagine this last year without getting to know you all. 

AFX Jokayne and Madhouse U, the crazy impulse I chose on a whim. It was one of the first thing I did outside of the SEA Community in college. It was a choice I was questioning myself about. However, it was one of the greatest choice of my college career. With AFX, I was carefree, fun and free. I could be anyone I wanted to be and to live the college experience. Thank you for welcoming me into the family!

This group of boys - Pi Delta Psi - can’t live with them, can’t live without them. Honestly it’s super random I am using their picture in my collage but I took it so it belongs to me. I wouldn’t have made it thus far without them. They are my bodyguards, my interns, my staffer, my best friends, my bullies, my enemies, and my loves. How on Earth did I become friends with these boys? But forever, I am grateful to have that shoulder to lean on. Thanks for the late night adventures, random food moments, drunk talks, crazy laughs and most important precious memories. 

There are more important people in my life that helped me survive this treacherous year. Thank you for the wonderful moments we shared this year :)

2013 have been a crazy year for me whether it’s academics, family or social life. However, from the bottom of my heart, I want to thank the people who have stuck by my side through all the good, the bad and the ugly.

VISION was not only an amazing experience for me but a great life lesson. Throughout the year, I learned so much about myself and others. I was able to form and continue many new friendships. From a casual hello to lat night skype sessions, I appreciate every little act of kindness and familiarity. Forever, these 36 students will always be my little babies even if I don’t talk to every single one of them.

My OHANA! They are my loves, my rocks, my support system, my family away from home. They are the one who will endure anything for one another. They are the one who will free up their schedule to go watch a show while sitting in each other’s lap. They are that special group of people that I will take their friendships beyond college. I cannot imagine this last year without getting to know you all.

AFX Jokayne and Madhouse U, the crazy impulse I chose on a whim. It was one of the first thing I did outside of the SEA Community in college. It was a choice I was questioning myself about. However, it was one of the greatest choice of my college career. With AFX, I was carefree, fun and free. I could be anyone I wanted to be and to live the college experience. Thank you for welcoming me into the family!

This group of boys - Pi Delta Psi - can’t live with them, can’t live without them. Honestly it’s super random I am using their picture in my collage but I took it so it belongs to me. I wouldn’t have made it thus far without them. They are my bodyguards, my interns, my staffer, my best friends, my bullies, my enemies, and my loves. How on Earth did I become friends with these boys? But forever, I am grateful to have that shoulder to lean on. Thanks for the late night adventures, random food moments, drunk talks, crazy laughs and most important precious memories.

There are more important people in my life that helped me survive this treacherous year. Thank you for the wonderful moments we shared this year :)


ICU

It seems only yesterday that you were here by my side. However, now you are off to a faraway place. People say time heals all wounds but sometimes it’s good to have the wound there. It makes me feel human. It makes me remember you. Always, I will love you. I don’t want to ever forget about you, your smile, your laugh, your presence in my life. You taught me so many things in life.. how to love myself, how to love others and most importantly, how to live life to the max. Everywhere I go, there will always be a reminder of you in my life. I love you so much that I don’t want to ever forget you. I will cherish the moments with you forever in my heart. There have not been a day that have passed that I have not thought about you. I wish I could have told you that I love you when you were still with me. 

Gone but never forgotten. 4 years later, I still wear the ring to remember of the man who made me to live life on the edge. Forever loving you and others, your granddaughter! I strive every day to be a better person because I want to make you proud even when you are no longer with me! 


Just once more, once more I want to tell you that I love you, once more where I can hold you in my arms and let all my love for you show. Just once more and I’ll be okay. I want to hold you like there’s no tomorrow. However, just once. Not twice but only once more. After that, I need to tell myself that I have let go. The way you look at me is not like you once did. It’s not the same and I understand. Things changed, we changed. I can’t hold onto something so tight because I will just end up suffocating a great thing that I once had. 

Just once more, once more I want to tell you that I love you, once more where I can hold you in my arms and let all my love for you show. Just once more and I’ll be okay. I want to hold you like there’s no tomorrow. However, just once. Not twice but only once more. After that, I need to tell myself that I have let go. The way you look at me is not like you once did. It’s not the same and I understand. Things changed, we changed. I can’t hold onto something so tight because I will just end up suffocating a great thing that I once had. 

(via jannelle-o)


Extremities of Life

Things tend to go either really, really well and other times, it’s just really really bad! Why can’t we have an intermediate level? I just want to be okay. Very simple. 


Sometimes the simplest thing is the most meaningful thing. All I need is a hug that enraptures me with love and care. Unfortunately, that sense of insecurity is slowly creeping back to me. I  feel like I’m all alone in this cold world once again. That warmth, that security, that trust, all gone with the wind.  

Sometimes the simplest thing is the most meaningful thing. All I need is a hug that enraptures me with love and care. Unfortunately, that sense of insecurity is slowly creeping back to me. I  feel like I’m all alone in this cold world once again. That warmth, that security, that trust, all gone with the wind.  

(via weizphamly)


Everything Before My Eyes

What if life was to flash before my eyes right now? This have been a question that I ask myself from time to time. The answers always vary from time to time. However, I think there’s one phase of my life that I hope will always flash before my eyes as I take my last breath. The moment when everything in my life was just going the way that I wanted. Take me back to those days where I was happy with the environment and conditions around me. It’s just unfortunate that this is just a wishful thinking. Maybe everything can return to that way, however, some things will never be the same. If I had a chance, I will turn back time and treasure those moments more. I wouldn’t have wasted my time on frivolous things. Now all I can do is chuckled to myself because there’s no point in crying. I wish just once more I can lean on your shoulders when I need it most. The journey have been very tough lately. It’s hard to carry on when all you feel is loneliness. Just once more.  


You have a place in my heart no one else ever could have.
F. Scott Fitzgerald, The Ice Palace (via dolly-kitten)

(via juliamariem)


What Matters…

No one is going to remember the date you were born or die, but what happens between the dash. It’s the memories that we make that keeps us going. At times, I feel like I’m all alone by myself in my thoughts then I look to my side, they may not be my significant other but they will always be there for me. What else can I ask for? I just want to be happy and carefree, it’s just nice to think about frivolous things once in a while. Honestly, I already have what truly matters, friends that care.


Shoulders Back, Heads Up, Eyes Forward

Finally after two years, today, I finally feel the determined Diana that I once knew is back. I’m back and ready to fight this battle. Regardless how hard this battle might be, I know for sure what I want and what it takes to get there. On the way, I might make some sacrifices but this is what I want and I’m going to do what it takes to get there.