This semester was an eye-opener for me. I was able to see a lot of things that I have never did before. Within this one year, my inner self kept evolving. I never reached that plateau where I was comfortable with who I was. I kept doubting myself who I truly was. I was on that journey to find happiness and content, however, that phase was always in me, I just failed to find it. I kept trying to change myself in hopes of finding a better me. However, eventually I realized the better me was always there, I was just afraid that it was not the best me.
In terms of academics, with all the grades finally posted, I can say I’m just happy for it to be all over now. It was a rough semester but I survived and looking at the grades, I’m not too disappointed. I got some pretty solid grades that I’m very happy about. I mean there are two classes which I wish I did better in but I guess I am just not wired for those classes. In the end, I’m happiest to know that my parents accept me no matter how I turn out to be.
In terms of friendship, a lot in the last year challenged me resulting in a common distrust in the human race. I honestly don’t know how to feel towards this word, friendship. I guess only over time will this wound healed. But for now, I am still deeply scarred by the two incidents of this past year. I guess the more you give, the more you lose. But I know one day I will stand back up and know where I should stand in this situation.
For handling and balancing my different lives, I probably invested too much time in extracurricular that I let small bits of my life pass me by. My goal for next year is to cherish every moment and make every moment worth it. It’s not to say that I wasted my time this semester, but I did not enjoy every moment of it, I enjoyed most of it. Balancing different things are always tough. I want to be sure to enjoy the short time I have in life.
In the end, I had a splendid semester with plenty of memories to live with :)