Life as I Want It

This semester was an eye-opener for me. I was able to see a lot of things that I have never did before. Within this one year, my inner self kept evolving. I never reached that plateau where I was comfortable with who I was. I kept doubting myself who I truly was. I was on that journey to find happiness and content, however, that phase was always in me, I just failed to find it. I kept trying to change myself in hopes of finding a better me. However, eventually I realized the better me was always there, I was just afraid that it was not the best me. 

In terms of academics, with all the grades finally posted, I can say I’m just happy for it to be all over now. It was a rough semester but I survived and looking at the grades, I’m not too disappointed. I got some pretty solid grades that I’m very happy about. I mean there are two classes which I wish I did better in but I guess I am just not wired for those classes. In the end, I’m happiest to know that my parents accept me no matter how I turn out to be. 

In terms of friendship, a lot in the last year challenged me resulting in a common distrust in the human race. I honestly don’t know how to feel towards this word, friendship. I guess only over time will this wound healed. But for now, I am still deeply scarred by the two incidents of this past year. I guess the more you give, the more you lose. But I know one day I will stand back up and know where I should stand in this situation.

For handling and balancing my different lives, I probably invested too much time in extracurricular that I let small bits of my life pass me by. My goal for next year is to cherish every moment and make every moment worth it. It’s not to say that I wasted my time this semester, but I did not enjoy every moment of it, I enjoyed most of it. Balancing different things are always tough. I want to be sure to enjoy the short time I have in life. 

In the end, I had a splendid semester with plenty of memories to live with :)

It’s crazy to think it was only a year ago I made the decision to go to the #1 public university in the world, UC Berkeley. It seem so far yet so quick that a year have passed. A year have passed and I am almost done with my 1st year in college. That’s a crazy thing to think about. Despite all the things that are going around me, Inside, I feel like I’m still that little freshman walking into Berkeley for the first time as an undergraduate student. However, I know that I have changed in many ways, both good and bad. 

Through this year, I learned more about myself, my family, friends and life values. Berkeley didn’t just provide me with an education, it provided me with knowledge that will take me to greater places. Through this year, I have been living by it so quickly that I haven’t had time to stop and think about what is going on around me. Recently, with time, I was able to re-evaluate the little treasures and omens that are around me. 

Within one academic year, I was able to reap so many experiences that I couldn’t possibly get anywhere else. There were times when I felt these experiences might have brought me down, made me have self-doubts and doubts in others. But now, calmly thinking about it, and soaking everything in, these experiences made me stronger and grow more as a person.